noise

I am a person of solitude and silence. Walker of the night, if that sheds more light on my meaning. I detest the times when the world comes alive with all the noise of traffic, the people. Lately, though my home has been a place that is rather hushed, there is still so much of it.

Mostly the people.

The neighbours... the cars that whizz past... the neighbours’ kids playing some screaming game on the driveway...the whistling of the carpenter in the next neighbours’ house...
I know, I know. Peaceful and suburb-ish.

Yet to me, it is NOISE.

It comforts me as much as scratching nail on a blackboard would comfort most people (you get the point – if you don’t you’re too daft to be reading this...yea, I apologise, that was uncalled for...but I am annoyed!! So let me rant! -_-)

Anything that interrupts the softest rustling of the arid yet golden autumn leaves, the rare whisper of the breeze, the occasional chirping of the birds...is repellent to me.

Yet lately, I find myself loving noise. Needing it. Even when I am doing nought but writing, I need the television set switched ON!! That noise...is comforting... *wince* (yea, hear me? Comforting???! Hope you realise how desperate I am now x_x)

The silence ceased to be the lonely bubble of the familiar world that is mine and mine alone.

The world that people used to tell me was completely detached from reality. My own. My very own.

My dream land.

Instead, now, this silence is oppressive. Suffocating. Accusing. I keep waiting to hear the condemnation I do not deserve that I know is coming. Soon.

*sigh*

Is nothing truly sacrosanct? Truly my own? Truly safe from the selfish clutches that is reality?

(yea, yea, morbid little sucker, am I not?)

No wonder ae? When I need to have the telly switched on even when there’s nought on apart from stupid cartoons!!!! (yes, that was right - CAR-TOONS!!!!!! Get the extent of my angst?)

Well, here’s a goodbye.

Goodbye, dearest silence mine... Sayonara! Adios! Salut! Auf wiedersehen! Slán leat!

*heavier sigh*

who lives in a pineapple under the sea!!

(kill me now? please?)